[Oh, but his ears are just too cute. E'kayan gives another one of them a pet, easily able to do so with them being positioned as they are, and he looks fondly down into the other man's golden eyes with an expression of absolute, complete adoration.]
Then I'll do just that. I'll need to go by the market on the way home but I'm sure I have almost everything I need. [Gently, he strokes his thumb against Erenville's temple.]
And you know... it's okay to be upset. You're allowed to feel whatever you're feeling about what happened.
[There was a few things they were going to need from the market just in general, anyway. So, detouring to the market on their way home would be fine. It wasn't like it was currently dinner time, they had the rest of the afternoon to get back to Amberfall.
He leaned into the touch at his temple. He closed his eyes with a nod.]
Yes, I know. I just... [He was still learning and adjusting to not being so solitary. But, evidently, his mother's entire goal for tasking him with finding the city of gold and to became a gleaner had not actually been to find the city of gold. But it was to learn to open up, not be so withdrawn and "dour". While he was... less unsociable than previously, it was still a work in progress.] 'Tis difficult at times. Not to fall into old habits.
[It's a little funny. He has always known that Erenville was a solitary sort of person - the way he lived his life attested to that - but just how much he tended to prefer his own company hadn't really been in E'kayan's mind until he met the man's mother. After all, hadn't Erenville not just spent weeks in the near-constant company of himself, Wuk Lamat, and the twins (amongst others)?
Those old habits of his might well be more shaken off than he realises... though the Miqo'te understands how he might still slip into them under this kind of stress.]
Yeah. I get that. I think. [He pets one of Erenville's long ears in slow, gentle strokes.] ... When we got back from Ultima Thule, I didn't feel like I could let anyone see how much of a mess I was. I'm happy I can help you with this.
[Erenville opened his eyes, looking up at the other man. He had not truly known the details of Ultima Thule, just the surface level kind. He was not the kind of man to pry, so he had yet to really ask for more on what happened that far out in the universe.
He likely wouldn't for awhile longer, it simply did not feel it was his place. Erenville didn't mind not knowing.]
[He wanted to. There were people - Alisaie and G'raha especially - that he might have eventually felt able to talk to about it all, but things never seemed to stop when it came to the Scions and himself in particular, and by the time he'd settled things in his own mind they were gearing up for another adventure.]
But... as it turns out, I didn't really need to. Going to Tural with you, helping Lamaty'i and Koana, and everything that we did together... It helped. More than any of you could ever know.
[The Miqo'te smiles, lifting his head up and looking out at the flowers and lush plants surrounding them.]
I was still having trouble with knowing that I didn't just have to do everything on my own. It was nice to take a back seat for once. To be someone who was just part of the team, not the leader.
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Date: 2024-07-02 07:43 pm (UTC)Then I'll do just that. I'll need to go by the market on the way home but I'm sure I have almost everything I need. [Gently, he strokes his thumb against Erenville's temple.]
And you know... it's okay to be upset. You're allowed to feel whatever you're feeling about what happened.
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Date: 2024-07-03 04:56 pm (UTC)[There was a few things they were going to need from the market just in general, anyway. So, detouring to the market on their way home would be fine. It wasn't like it was currently dinner time, they had the rest of the afternoon to get back to Amberfall.
He leaned into the touch at his temple. He closed his eyes with a nod.]
Yes, I know. I just... [He was still learning and adjusting to not being so solitary. But, evidently, his mother's entire goal for tasking him with finding the city of gold and to became a gleaner had not actually been to find the city of gold. But it was to learn to open up, not be so withdrawn and "dour". While he was... less unsociable than previously, it was still a work in progress.] 'Tis difficult at times. Not to fall into old habits.
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Date: 2024-07-06 06:31 pm (UTC)Those old habits of his might well be more shaken off than he realises... though the Miqo'te understands how he might still slip into them under this kind of stress.]
Yeah. I get that. I think. [He pets one of Erenville's long ears in slow, gentle strokes.] ... When we got back from Ultima Thule, I didn't feel like I could let anyone see how much of a mess I was. I'm happy I can help you with this.
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Date: 2024-10-22 03:12 am (UTC)[Erenville opened his eyes, looking up at the other man. He had not truly known the details of Ultima Thule, just the surface level kind. He was not the kind of man to pry, so he had yet to really ask for more on what happened that far out in the universe.
He likely wouldn't for awhile longer, it simply did not feel it was his place. Erenville didn't mind not knowing.]
Did you let anyone else see? Eventually?
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Date: 2024-10-29 12:16 pm (UTC)No, I didn't.
[He wanted to. There were people - Alisaie and G'raha especially - that he might have eventually felt able to talk to about it all, but things never seemed to stop when it came to the Scions and himself in particular, and by the time he'd settled things in his own mind they were gearing up for another adventure.]
But... as it turns out, I didn't really need to. Going to Tural with you, helping Lamaty'i and Koana, and everything that we did together... It helped. More than any of you could ever know.
[The Miqo'te smiles, lifting his head up and looking out at the flowers and lush plants surrounding them.]
I was still having trouble with knowing that I didn't just have to do everything on my own. It was nice to take a back seat for once. To be someone who was just part of the team, not the leader.